Hi there! I know it has been awhile and for that I am greatly sorry.
A lot has changed since the last time we spoke.
I wanted to share with one of the newsletters I had sent out in July. At this point in my life my circumstances were very different than they are now. But as I read the letter again I thought it would be a good idea to share it with you. Well, at least I hope it will be! Because I know it was good for me to be reminded of how God takes all of the not so good and turns it around for our good and for His glory. In doing this it also points us and others towards His love, peace, grace, and mercy which are new every day!
So take a seat, sit back, and enjoy!
July 23, 2021
Oh how I pray this finds you well!
I also pray that this week has given you many blessings!
Can you count them all?
I know at times we can get caught up in the day to day of things that we miss opportunities and blessings that God is so gracious to give us. I know I have had to step back already this week, take a deep breath and remind myself that, “this too shall pass”.
This week is a bit hard for me and well, I’m at a loss of words.
For that I am truly sorry. I also apologize for getting this to you so late in the day.
For some reason our WiFi isn’t working the greatest and so I am doing this from my phone.
Thank God for cell phones!
So, this Saturday was the day I was supposed to walk down the aisle. Although, I am still upset and hurt over the postponement 5 months ago; I know God has His reasons and He still has a plan for my life.
I also have to remember that nothing is done by accident. Of course, at times it’s hard to see the good from all of this, but then again God finds a way to open my eyes, as well as, my heart to see things from His perspective.
I have waited a very long time for this day since losing my fiancé and children’s father 13 years ago. But God has shown His great love for me over the years and especially now during this season of my life. He is so good to remind me that no one will ever be able to love us the way only He can. And He reminds me that His ways are higher than ours.
I also know that everything God says He will do. He will bring healing, comfort, and joy to the broken and hurting heart.
“For where there is great pain there is forgiveness and healing!”
Unfortunately, we don’t get to see the big picture on this side of Heaven or all of the work God is doing behind the scenes.
But one day as we stand face to face with Him, He will show us exactly how He used every situation and circumstance for His good and ours!
Oh how I long to see how God is working even this out for His glory. How every tear that falls and every heartbreak brings forth beauty from the ashes!
I do pray I will able to walk down the aisle to my future husband one day. I also pray to keep trusting God and to press forward no matter the outcome.
Ok ok, I guess I have something to say!
On that note… Until we meet again my dear sweet friend.
May the Lord bless you and keep you always,
And there it is all in a nutshell.
I do hope this letter brought you some hope of encouragement.
Of course as I said in the beginning my circumstances have changed drastically since I wrote this newsletter. I am now looking at all of this from a very different perspective. I did not get to walk down the aisle to my future husband. My wedding has been postponed indefinitely.
Honestly, I don’t know if I will ever get to walk down that aisle in the ‘perfect” dress, which now sits in a closet.
This chapter of my life has ended and I am at the beginning of a very new one. I don’t know where the story will take me but I have to believe that God has already paved the way. Unfortunately, my faith is smaller than a mustard seed right now. But I’m doing my best to trust God and stay steadfast. I am very tired and I feel very empty.
But with all of the refining and growing and changing these past two year has brought me there will be victory! I will continue on this road of great healing to overcome the things of this world that the enemy has used to keep me captive.
I am very thankful to be able to share with you all of my hurts, hang-ups, and habits, as well as, my victories and the things I have and will overcome! I hope you found some peace and comfort knowing that whatever you are facing God is already making a way and bringing the good out of it.
God doesn’t want us to be perfect, but rather do the best we can by remaining faithful to Him and steadfast.
May you keep pressing forward in perseverance and I will also!